October 2011
1 post
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November 2009
2 posts
I think I am passing a kidney stone.
cwphoto:
and it SUCKS.
I have some serious personal experience in this area, I have kidney disease and i get about 6 kidney stones a year, and you are right, they SUCK. The first 6 or so I had, I had to go to the ER every time because I was in so much pain. Good luck to you, I hope for your sake that it isn’t a stone.
October 2009
5 posts
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
I thought life was okay again, it’s not. Everything is always so fucking broken. I don’t even know what to do anymore. I can’t even think of anything else to write, I just want to fucking break everything in my house. I want to wake up somewhere else tomorrow.
Wow, I’ve never had 2 Red Bulls in such a short period of time. I feel like my heart is going to fucking explode. Let’s just hope I get this paper finished before that happens.
September 2009
10 posts
Bukowski, waffles, and Volcano Choir. What a night.
God damn it. I’m lonely as hell.
“I feel guilty when people say I’m the greatest on the scene. What’s...”
– Jimi Hendrix
A piece of fiction that I wrote today:
Today’s the day. Today I get it, or I don’t, whichever the case may be. It’s all coming together, and it’s all falling apart. Night after night, I sit here, in this dark, sty of a room, wondering when. It has all led up to this, this moment of enlightenment. My palms are sweaty, I can’t believe it is finally here. I feel an itch just under my right eye, and as I...
What is this all leading up to? Where is the climax? Where is the plateau? I sometimes feel as if I am on a path to nowhere.
August 2009
30 posts
Sometimes I wish I could take pictures with my eyes, the world seems less real now than it ever has.
“The world is full of idiots, [name of person].”
“I know.”
- An actual conversation I had at work today, sometimes I love the Den.
There’s been times that I’ve hated you for making me feel ways that you made me feel. Now, I am happy that everything that happened did happen. If it weren’t for you, and all the good and all the bad, I would never have become the person I am today. I feel like an entirely different person now. I have a new view on life, and I feel like I have grown immensely. So thank you.
“Listen, you, we’ve had plenty of days like this, and many that were much more complicated. Remember your big camp-out sleepover birthday party? The Lake Tahoe-with-your-large-headed friend trip? Really, if anything, this is a much more pedestrian day than most. This is just a caricature, this, the skeleton of experience— I mean, you know this is just one slivery, wafer-thin...
My favorite thing about having this blog is the fact that I don’t have to pretend. If you ask me how I am doing, I will almost always respond, “I’m good” or “I’m okay”. This blog has the balls to tell you the things that I am too afraid to open up about.
“All I ever wanted was to know what to do.”
– Dave Eggers (via loveyourchaos)
I never thought I would say this, but I love hip hop.
There are some absolutely brilliant hip-hop artists out there.
I can’t describe how amazing this song is.
...
Ill City - New School Clothes LISTEN TO IT!!! →
I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I’ve severed ties with almost everyone I know, and I feel more alone than ever. Where the fuck are you? Come and make it all better.
Smile.
Just click and listen. →
I’m really not too sure what has been going on with me lately. I can’t seem to keep myself happy. I just got back from Las Vegas today, and I couldn’t even keep myself sincerely happy there. I think I need some sort of change in my life, but I don’t know what it is. I know I could just see a therapist and they would give me happy pills, but I don’t want that. I...
Honestly, the reason I write anything in this blog is to forget things that are going on in the real world. I don’t like people. I don’t understand why people do the things they do. I live my life only to live and do things that make me happy. Why can’t it just be that simple for everybody? I want to live my life, make music, take pictures, and one day have a family. That...
Darin
I think Darin exists to ruin my life. Every turn in my life, he has been there to somehow fuck it up. For most of my life, I have done nothing more than be there for him during every obstacle in his life. Now, he constantly puts me down and has this snobby, “I’m better than you” atmosphere about him. I don’t care if he thinks he knows how I should live my life, every...
This song is amazing.
Lost In Time —...
“For a moment I was warm and the world made sense
For a moment this storm had no...”
– The Day I Lost My Voice — Copeland
Sometimes I think I give people too many “second chances”. I just don’t have the ability to give up on others. It seems that only the good memories stick in my mind, and as nice as that sounds, it’s not. It makes me want to go back and attempt to relive those memories. I can’t stop myself from constantly trying to find the good in people. I don’t think...
WatchThis is the meaning of life.
July 2009
16 posts
I’ve wasted so much time. Years of my life pissed away, watching TV or playing video games. How much knowledge did I miss out on? How many intruments would I have mastered by now? Sometimes I wish there was a “Back” button for life.
