I’m really not too sure what has been going on with me lately. I can’t seem to keep myself happy. I just got back from Las Vegas today, and I couldn’t even keep myself sincerely happy there. I think I need some sort of change in my life, but I don’t know what it is. I know I could just see a therapist and they would give me happy pills, but I don’t want that. I don’t want to be fake happy. I don’t care how whiny I may sound right now, but I honestly can’t remember the last time I was truly happy, and that worries me.